Spill Writing

Putting the body first


What does it mean to put your physical selves ahead of our emotional selves?

What does it mean to not connect with someone on an emotional level, but a physical level (only)?

But what about your body’s needs? Are you to ignore it when you’re horny? When you’re in a city while your boyfriend or girlfriend is in another and you are horny. And you meet someone. And they’re horny. They want you. How does your body react to this sense?

In Load, the red latex gloves creates a bold sense of tactility, which evokes the notion that your body is longing to be touched and to touch others.  When the performer caresses the floor you hear the latex rubbing the wood, he lets you imagine him feeling, touching you. You want to know what it feels like. You live in a time of Tinder, of Grindr, where the only touching of the other person you get until you meet in real life is the swiping right on the phone screen. But you can become anyone you want and use your body as an object of desire.

You live in a time where images dominate your sense of normality, what to want, what to love, what to fear, what to look like to belong, what to look like to be desired. You are presented and re-presented in media and social media. Load touches on this with the story about a lover being the photographer, Brandon, from Humans of New York. Using social media currency and the desire to be seen and liked by over fourteen million followers on Facebook, Brandon lures the performer to become an object of desire by anonymous strangers around the world.

The performer’s use of a voice-changer head-set microphone, creates a sense of eery anonymity, as you are unable to identify the voice of the real performer. Mixed with his fluid sexuality, you are encouraged to let go of labels of sexuality and heteronormativity in place of a more liberal view, free from societal constraints. Where you allow your body to act on your desires.

But is this simply base and biological? Do you have societal constructs in place to evolve from your reduced, physical needs and self? Or are these constructs there so that you are tamed into conforming in a certain way that fits society’s needs and wants? Afterall, society doesn’t have a body that needs physical fulfilment.

But humans do.

What if you put your body first?

-Michelle